A transformative experience


This past week I spent 3 days deeply immersed in a book intensive with my team and an author who’s working with us. By trade, the author is a well-respected executive coach.

The work on his book was exciting and powerful. But something else happened.

The author had said to me in advance: “Ellen, just a heads up, when we're in Austin together, I'm gonna push you on your business. I think you could be a lot more successful."

I had said, "I would love that, because I've been flying by the seat of my pants."

So we had this unbelievable conversation. He was able to cover so much ground so quickly. You know how you can cut the surface of the skin, and it'll hurt more than if you get deeper? We just got straight to that deeper level.

We got to the point where even if I wanted to cry, I wouldn't have been able to. I was in a state of emotional depth that was completely beyond crying. It was an intense emotional state.

I realized, "Wow, this guy is showing me how I have been constraining my team and being the bottleneck of the business, and acting on unconscious & false beliefs that have been holding us all back."

And I thought, “Holy shit.”

But I didn't feel horribly guilty about it.

I felt like I had been trying to break down a door, and somebody just walked up and handed me the key.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ 🔑

More on this later! btw, you can reply to me here if you want to be added to my list of people to ping when this book is ready.

Thanks for reading.

- Ellen

Ellen Fishbein ~ ALTAMIRA.STUDIO

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